Obsidian + TikzJax plugin for the win for writing academic docs! #dev #life

Everybody is either fucking or getting fucked today at the holy day named Christmas in name of Jesus, and here, it’s me, alone, programming some algorithms that i am hating currently, which will almost certainly hate for the rest of my life in the future not afar, and wish you all Merry Christmas! 🎄🎄🎄🎅🎅🎅 #life

This is life. #life

Today I worked on a super fun integral! The idea for this problem is to first expand ln(1+x) into a Maclaurin series, then substitute this series into the integral, integrate each term separately to get an alternating square series (1−1/4+1/9−1/16+⋯). This series is related to the Basel problem's ζ(2)=π²/6, because the alternating signs make the result exactly half of it, so the final result of the integral is π²/12! I calculated it faster than the professor! ☺️#dev #life

One of the best photos taken randomly by my friend over the Spring break in March, at Capitol Reef, this is likely going to be my background/banner photo for different media platforms over quite a time before I find it dull. https://ift.tt/7nYVJNR

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もしかしたら、僕には感情面でとても情熱的で、優しく導いてくれるような彼女が必要なのかもしれない。自分でも気づかないうちに失ってしまった「愛されることへの自信」や「人を愛する力」を、少しずつでも取り戻すためには、そんな存在が必要なんだと思う。

正直に言うと、僕は今、感情に対してどこか鈍くて、無関心に近い状態にある。いわゆる“emotional indifference”と呼ばれるものかもしれない。それは自分で選んだわけではなく、きっと心を守るために身につけてしまったもの。でも、その代償はとても大きい。とても、苦しい。

僕は、両親以外の誰かからの愛情や好意を、うまく受け取ることができない。言葉の裏にある優しさや、さりげない思いやり、目に見えない「愛してる」というサインに気づけない。そして気づけないからこそ、うまく応えられない。

その結果、すれ違いや誤解が生まれ、関係が崩れてしまう——そんなパターンを、何度か繰り返してしまった。

でも、だからこそ僕は学びたい。
たとえ今の自分が不器用で、どう反応していいか分からなくても、それでも少しずつ、感情に対する「応答の仕方」を学んでいきたい。

恋愛に対しても、仕事や勉強に向き合うのと同じくらい真剣でありたいと思っている。

感情だからといって、曖昧にしたり、成り行きに任せるのではなく、しっかりと向き合い、責任を持ちたい。

そして、そのためには——恋愛・学業・仕事、この三つのバランスを自分の中でしっかりと見極め、それぞれにふさわしい時間の配分と優先度を考えなければならないと思っている。

どれか一つでも崩れてしまえば、他の二つにまで悪影響が出てしまう。それほど、自分にとってはどれも大切な要素だ。 #life #daily

This is exactly the same figure of depiction of me at school resulted from sleep deprivation. https://ift.tt/sujMTyc

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Happy new year from Shanghai! 🥳🥳🥳

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🎉 May the graceful fall break hereby commence marked by the completion of midterms! Thanks to Professor Crites for his generosity on the Starbucks treats! #life #daily

I ordered a large Caramel Macchiato which is arguably one of the all time classic yet my favorite drink despite I didn’t finish it due to a prior monster boost the night before the midterm.

Yep, seems like GitHub is entirely experiencing service outage at this particular moment due to some random non-distinguishable causes. https://ift.tt/Wk2lStm

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That's exactly how Marlboro's advertising strategy ought to be publicized to all smokers that inattentively pays a reckless 10 dollar bill to some corner liquor shop on an average of 1-2 day-basis, costly yet deadly, I know exactly what breathed into my lungs. https://ift.tt/tU5ObhF

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Gave the counter clerk a leftover pack of rare Marlboro cigarettes in favor of a one-time exemption of ID check for grabbing some booze at liquor store around the corner. #life #share

Anyone considering drop by Phoenix for residential accommodation please contact me for shared rent, the average rate of apartment skyrocketed to an absurdity since 20’ which fucked me up entirely by abstaining me at the aridity of Northern Arizona. #life #daily

💗 Pardon my dearest, would you consider to me to be your lover or alternatively vice versa with hands in one the other marching to the blessed future happiness of ours. #photo #life